I wake to see a man wrapped in shadows in the corner of my room and feel the presence of something I can't place keeping me down. The man is repeatedly chanting three words, words I can't remember. I can't speak, I can't move. All I can feel is the pressure pinning me to my bed, not pushing me into it: just keeping me from getting up. I start to feel afraid. I want to scream but no sound comes out. The man tells me to chant with him and "it will be OK," I start praying for all that I'm...

Why is it that everyone keeps telling me to think about what I want to do with the rest of my life? That's all I've been thinking about for the last three months. I can't get it out of my mind. The moment I start to get the smallest glimpse of clarity, someone decides to butt in with an opinion of their own.

Have any of you idiots thought that maybe, just MAYBE (seeing as this is one of the most important decisions of my life) I HAVE put some (a lot) of thought into this? Could you...

Here is a list of all the things I learned today:
(My tuition is going to a good cause ;))

• Psychologists are useless.
• I can spell "DEAD" with my calculator.
• "ami" translates to friend in at least 2 languages.
• I really need to carry confetti with me at all times.

What have you learned today?

Today my life sucks.

Ek weet niks. Ek het niks. Ek het niemand wat wil verstaan nie. Almal wil net hê ek moet "oor dit kom," maar ek kan nie. Dis 'n deel van wie ek is.

Ek wens ek het 2 jaar terug my lewe geneem. Ek wens hierdie is alles 'n droom en dat ek binnekort gaan wakker word. Ek wens die wêreld eindig oor 3 dae. Ek wens ek kry 'n terminale siekte ek wens net dat ek nie IS nie. Nie hier is nie. Ek kan nie meer aangaan met dinge waarvan ek niks hou nie...

Lisa's still alive, for those who care (personally I'm amazed). Now for the part that's all about me:

I am looking for interesting websites, so if you have any suggestions, please let me know.

I would also like for someone to do a project for me, it will only require about 40 hours' worth of programming and researching and it's due in about a month so if I could have it in 3 weeks that would be great.

I am bored with my current playlist, please suggest...