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I was actually really happy today. Strangely too. People at work were the same amount of sexist, racist, and just plain lacking common decency, as usual. The customers were incredibly dumb. Yet, I was happy today. Just ecstatic. Then for some reason, my dysphoria decided to hit me. And, now... I really don't know. I feel all the shit that I had thought I was done with. The uselessness, the hopelessness, the desire to just stop existing. All without provocation. I see the world and I see myself, and it seems, no matter how hard I try, I hard I can ever try, I just will never fit.
Sorry, I just needed to rant. Or something.
I'm sure this feeling will be gone shortly, I just needed to rant.
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Caution, I may bite.
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