[Fruitbat]

Oh bollocks!

This morning I cried, while brushing my teeth. the other day, I cried when driving alone in my car. This sucks. I don't cry. the only thing crying gets you is a headache, and red blotchy eyes.

Mr Bat and the specialist are reducing his anti-rejection meds in the hope that it stops being toxic to his kidney. Two outcomes: one his kidney function improves; two, his body rejects his kidney. Wait time: 3-4mths.

oh and the control he thought he had over the situation, well that went out the window, when we found out his bro isn't compatible. So now I'm stepping up to the plate.

Also discovered he has avascular necrosis of the ankles - fucking wonderful. the same thing he had in his hips.

Word of warning to those who take steroids for a reason other than medicinal? Don't. It fucks up your beautiful, precious body.

Oh and we find out next week how much damage has been done to his heart.

Where am I going to find the strength?