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What about depression as a medical condition...? You are aware that being chronically depressed for too long a time(especially at an early age, I imagine) can rewire the brain, right?
Sometimes I wonder if no matter how great life gets, I might still have to wonder off at night and have mood swings.
I don't want to take medicine for it. Not if I don't have to. I don't even think I have insurance, anyway.
But really, life now sucks and I am completely justified in hating at this point in time. This is rock bottom.
I know it will get better.... but just, what if my brain refuses to acknowledge that fact? How am I going to know for sure that I can leave all this behind me...?
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