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Because it didn't change my feelings about her.

She was also really sorry.
She even stopped smoking cold turkey just to prove it to me.
Any time I bring it up, she starts sobbing.

You know what they say- True love never dies.


Even though it's gonna take a long time for me to fully trust her again, it kinda seems like it brought us closer.



It still hurts me so much every day, though. So much.
It's not as bad as it used to be. It used to come into my mind every hour, and I'd want to kill myself.

Now I think about it a few times a day, and it's more of dull heartache.



Did I mention that she's the only one of my girlfriends who was ever sorry about it?
I could never give her up, because I really do love her, and I know she loves me back <333

And I have very good proof for her loving me, even though it kind of scares me.
One time, she thought I was breaking up with her. She started freaking out, and not like the "oh god!" type of freaking out, like the She completely lost it, spasms, shrieking, having trouble breathing. The whole thing. o_o

She says she was dieing.

Yeah. If that's not good proof, you can just shoot me.