Temptation ...

d0p3y · 08-08-2010, 02:15 AM

In the last couple of months i have been trying to be a better person, for my family ,for my girl and for my self. I believe that I am happier now than when I was "out in the streets".

Now that being said..

Today a friend invited me to a party at a tattoo shop that another friend works at [who BTW gives me free tattoos] and i declined the invitation because i know it would have led me to trouble and it's not worth losing everything I've worked for. But the temptation is too much at times, i noticed i have become a hermit because all of my friends are still doing the same activities which lead to trouble and i don't anymore, but FUCK they make it sound so fucking appealing.

so basically a miss my old life a little. -___-"

ape descendant · 08-08-2010, 02:21 AM

You need beer and good conversation....

d0p3y · 08-08-2010, 02:35 AM

i don't drink anymore ape it's one of the many things i quit doing... but conversation is defenatly therapeutic for me.

ape descendant · 08-08-2010, 02:47 AM

*awkward pause* Oh... well... good conversation then.... *awkward pause*

d0p3y · 08-08-2010, 03:06 AM

so... yeah. you like beer?

JCC. · 08-08-2010, 11:52 AM

I am 100% with you, guy. I'm not gonna say it gets easier, because in my experience, it doesn't. So get used to the feeling, and it becomes background noise. My past life got me into a shit lot of trouble, and continues to bite me in the ass once in a while. Sometimes, I'll want to just go out, get hammered and drugged up and fuck stuff up. But I know that if I do that shit, everything I worked for up to now will be gone. Being a lazy bastard, that crap was hard fucking work, and I'll miss what I have now, and I don't want to have to work that hard again.

As for the people that I knew at the time, fuck 'em. They all of a sudden weren't the type of people I wanted to spend time with, because they became cunts. I don't take drugs any more, I get drunk in my own space, we don't really relate. I never thought that they'd react so badly to me getting my shit straight. Why the fuck would I wanna hang out with people like that, whether I was still a fuck up or not?

So, in short, get used to the feeling, it's really the only way. Whatever shit you used to get up to, that's done. You've done it, you're smart to stay at the point you are. Stay the fuck away from temptation forever.

Despanan · 08-08-2010, 12:05 PM

Same here,

after college I really came into myself. I stopped caring what other people thought, grew my hair long, got into shape, and started working as a professional actor with a quazi-rock edge (due to the job I had).

I started pulling all kinds of tail, partying late, getting fucked up etc.

Then my buddy died, I went on the trail, and met my current Girlfriend.

Now I'm in NYC, and pretty much living the life that I'd always dreamed of...there's alot of temptation out there to go back to, but I have to remember that I was miserable when I was living a life of excess.

Stay the course man, it only seems like it would be fun to go back down that road.

Ben Lahnger · 08-08-2010, 05:08 PM

JCC. and Despanan gave the advice I would give you.

And you have it dead to rights ... why would you want to hang out with people who don't like the thought of you getting your life together?

Razeal18 · 08-08-2010, 06:30 PM

not that i am not a fan of excess but it takes it's toll after a while. This may seem a bit too reading rainbow but why not make new friends that aren't complete idiots? Going out is only going out, its not necessarily drinks or drugs and i bet the Mrs. would love being shown off at a club.

Always realize that you have complete control and the power to choose.

d0p3y · 08-08-2010, 09:47 PM

thanks for the advice everyone...

and RAZ i have been thinking of taking my girl to either a

A Lady Gaga consert- she's a BIG fan and i am not :/, but i think it would be nice.

OR

The Zoo - It's something we have talked about, but never got arround to doing.

i am still undecided on that.

JCC. · 08-08-2010, 10:00 PM

Do the shitty Gaga thing. You'll get head for that. The zoo will be there for a while. Fortunately, that annoying fuck is a flash in the pan.

Fruitbat · 08-09-2010, 03:44 AM

Congratulations on saying no. It takes a lot of inner strength/balls/guts to say no to friends.

Everyone's said what I would have said (but a heck of a lot better). Find other things to fill your time with.

Catch · 08-09-2010, 11:19 AM

Once upon I would go clubbing and out to parties frequently. It went from every few months, needing to blow off some steam to, well it has been a long time. That really just isn't me anymore.

Hearts_Purple · 08-09-2010, 12:16 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by JCC.

Do the shitty Gaga thing. You'll get head for that. The zoo will be there for a while. Fortunately, that annoying fuck is a flash in the pan.

I remember how great the sex was after my husband and I went to see Judas Priest a few years ago for my birthday.

I'm just too olde to go out and party these days. I know that there are people older than me who still do more shit than I ever did, but that kind of partying just doean't fit into my life anymore. When I was partying I was going through a LOT of pain. While it does help to stave off the pain some, you still have to wake up the next day in the same circumstances.

Whenever I'm tempted to do something I remember what it was that drove me to it back then. It normally snaps me out of wanting to relive some of the shittier times in my life.

Razeal18 · 08-09-2010, 05:57 PM

http://www.zooatlanta.org/ we got it all in da A... BITCHES

Admiral_Happypants · 08-09-2010, 06:10 PM

Raz is correct on the meeting new people bit. When separating oneself from a lifestyle it is unfortunately necessary to separate from your old friends. If you have an old friend that accepts your change, you'll notice they don't invite you to those activities. However the ones that don't accept the change, care more for the lifestyle than a good friendship. Agreeing with JCC. it doesn't get easier, sometimes it feels like it does than that damn monkey is on your back again. Just recently I had to divert my attentions from succumbing to my older ways by finding something to supplant that feeling. The thing that has kept me going is knowing what I have now and how terrible it would be to lose. You seem to have that part figured out already. Just keep it up and find other friends and shit to do with your time. If ever you need an ear PM me. I'll be more than happy to "listen" to all you have say and shut up when I need to.

ape descendant · 08-09-2010, 07:11 PM

Trying to be a better person is never a waste of time.

The unfortunate thing is that sometimes it means loss of friends, however there are other people that you will meet that will help you along in your new lifestyle.

Sorry about the beer suggestion thing.. I didn't realize that was one of the things that you were giving up.

voodoowitchdr · 08-10-2010, 12:58 PM

I know that I'm going to sound like a suburban soccer-mom, but I think you should try and get more involved in your community. Voulenteer if you have the time, look for community events, barbeques instead of parties and even church gatherings if you want to go that far. Something to fill the void a little bit, I think it might take the pressure off a little.

in.the.moon · 11-05-2010, 05:28 PM

we never went to the lady gaga concert. its ok tho