Really don't know what to call this
In the end there is a long list of shit or things that I could remember as being a time when I once was someone that someone else to look up to but that shit is dead now. I can't really say why I am not the one that still has that same oppertunity to do that kind of thing again. Really the odds are against me on this one but these odds are not the kind of odds that can be easily turned. For my well being that is something that I don't think that I would want to change about my life. I do have my times when I can do good for others but that doesn't last that long in time that always seems to be the home base for me. I serve as a sock puppet part time as I am in school and I work in a packaging company. All of this is just one part of a greater block that is waiting to be dropped into place. One day I will be able to stand back and see the big picture but for now I am just along for the ride.
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