Lonely...

[eternalcrimson]

I want to apologize to you Vyv. I didn’t mean to hijack your thread with the pissing match that me and Bloopie are in. I’m going to move it to another thread and hope that you are not angry with me. I’m sorry.

[DarkHeartedDemoness]

Originally Posted by Vyvian Blackthorne

God, well if it's boring to you THEN RATHER RADE THE literature forums and NOT ONE INVOLVING THE PERSONAL PROBLEMS OF A GOTH!
I need to take some charge-so my aggression is not flaming, but after reading what Bloopie's been writing, I can't STAND it. Also, if you're going to critise it here why don't think first of HOW others like me, perhaps PASSIONATE about it will feel, eh? Do you really think we here need that? Do you?! Bi-Polar, insufferable, whatever you are, just take all of your personal problems out somewhere else, because it's surely not appreciated HERE.

~GothicBlackthorne

You didn't fit the word "goth" in there enough.

Please re-write.

[Vyvian Blackthorne]

My Goth, DHD, why do you keep doing this? That's not helping. Please...This is a personal thread, I can't say too much I appreciate jokes right now. Sorry, and I hope I have not caused you too much damage. Which is a shame because we used to get along so well
The reason I speak so much of goth is because when I was young, living with my father, he forced me to dress the way he wanted-and tortured me if I ever decided to rebel. Goth is a salvation for me, part of my art, my writing, my soul...only few have come to understand that. I see myself not as anything higher than anyone who differs from me. I know you don't care, but I can only give you so much of an explanation.

Bloopie, I'm a bitch? Okay, I can accept that-if expression truthfully means nothing at all to a scum like you. But you can't accept that, so get the hell out of here, alright? I don't care if you are not goth, but shoving your words in my face I don't need. I really can't negociate with you because your opinions block such a trait.

Crimson, of course you're forgiven, but I was dreadfully confused with what was happening to this thread. As for now, I wish all of you could help with my problems.

~GothicBlackthorne

[KontanKarite]

I am going to say this. Vyvy could very well be an extreme case. Goth could very well be a bigger saving grace to him than most. Essentially, I'm not going to say that his stories and his justifications for being goth are false. I can't know that and I can't assume that my life was worse than his. No one else can do this either.

There's nothing wrong with tough love, but sweet sensual Jesus, let's show a little compassion sometime.

[Vyvian Blackthorne]

God, thank you Kontan.


~GothicBlackthorne

[DarkHeartedDemoness]

Vyvi, I'm not joking. I'd like to see you rewrite with more uses of the word "goth". And as far as your "personal" thread goes, this is and will likely remain a public forum. If that's a problem, get a live journal.

[Vyvian Blackthorne]

gOOOh, okay. I see, you wanted me to use Goth more than saying 'it' that's more respectful in all cases. Sorry. You must forgive me though, I tend to mistake your posts since the Cotton incident. My fault. Yes, this is a public forum, though I don't appreciate it being hijacked, that's all.

[Mir]

I've enjoyed this argument. Is it too late to say, to each his own?

[MollyMac]

No such thing as a personal thread, and all are subject to jacking. Being a free board, and a freeish country, and being as how you do not pay my bills:



Develop a coping mechanism before you continue.






...and if you feel that someone is being too harsh or annoyong then, in your words, TAKE CHARGE...


... use the ignore function.

[Vyvian Blackthorne]

Goohht...Mir, you enjoyed this? But I thought I had your support . ggggggg.

[Vyvian Blackthorne]

Good point, Mollymac. Though I didn't say I was restricting it. By 'personal thread' I meant it was a thread to which I could, well, express my personal problems.

[MollyMac]

Then get a blog.

[Vyvian Blackthorne]

Good point as well, though on the other hand, I greatly of course, appreciate likeminded people giving their support or words. Of course I appreciate tough love, to an extent, though. Bloopie took that too far, so I was fumed. I put him on my ignore list, but then couldn't help but look at the posts-just from what he had done previously tempted me.

[Mir]

You do have my support and you're just a person like me with flaws and positives. Why tear your world down? It won't make me feel better. I think expression does help cope with some of the crap in our lives. ggggggggg

[Vyvian Blackthorne]

gggggggggg.
Oh, okay, I agree.

[Vyvian Blackthorne]

gggggggggg.
Oh, okay, I agree.

[honeythorn]

Vyvian have you been on Veryliberating.com? Basically if you haven't then you just write to your hearts content, no usernames, nothing of that sort, and post it. No one can reprise you or have a go. It isn't a messageboard where you get replies, you are just an anonymous number. It is useful if you just want to vent and not get shit for it. I've done it a couple of times and found it useful.

[Vako]

Originally Posted by Bloopie

Quoting me out of context is nice isn't it!?

Let me explain to your weak mind:

[snip]

Now do you get it, little brain?

Every time you type insults at me you sink deeper into a swamp of dumb.

[MollyMac]

Eeeeeeeeegnore heeeeeeeeeem.

(close de door)

[mrs.wes straker]

Originally Posted by Vako

Every time you type insults at me you sink deeper into a swamp of dumb.

Aha, that's a good one! *Writes joke down*

[mrs.wes straker]

Hey, that joke was funny! I'm going to use it as a comeback at work.

[eternalcrimson]

Originally Posted by Bloopie

Yeah, and every time you respond with a quip you prove you lack mental capacity.

.......odviously not a Phil Hendrie fan..........

Even more odvious would be the lack of a sense of humor

[KontanKarite]

Your Mother Wears Combat Boots!!!

[Vyvian Blackthorne]

Goth has and always will be something graceful to me. Before I discovered that, like I mentioned earlier, I was going to commit suicide. Though I still suffer from depression, I feel not to kill myself despite all the writing I did speaking of how pointless living life is. I still am lonely and struggle to survive in this country. I am glad at least Kontan shows compassion toward that; but I must credit the rest of you.

[Vyvian Blackthorne]

Good goth, I am still very lonely. I am currently spoke to someone, a pychiatrist-I had just gotten into a graving fight with my mother, to whom I am very attached to. She came visiting and normally she is on my side, I could never be angry at her-and I never will be...she must have taken on the side of my father, whose a different story. At least now she's calm, what we fought over were regarding my issues in the Art college I am currently trying to get into; originally I wasn't going to go to anything. At least my mother understands and accepts goth, my father is a completely different story.

Though like my mother, the person I spoke to understands the goth subculture and is very attacted toward it; he's an old-school Euro-Punk just in the Therapist disguise as he claims. I'm still seeing if I got accepted into the school, and I have a strongly feeling there will be goths or people accepting there (the pyschiatrist vists there frequently) so that is my first step toward salvation...I told him everything in my life, plauging me and hurting me deeply-the pain always lacking its dawn. He told saw that the 'friends' I had made, other than the few fellow goths I used to know in the Netherlands, didn't understand me at all-only using me because they saw how apparently 'pitiful' I am.

He suggested I look for more fellow goths, for he saw in hearing me discuss with him how much it means to me and apart of my soul (him being a Buddhist, so understands in his vision) or someone who is deemed a non-conformist or misfit in such a cruel society. I do hope to get into that art colledge, and I do hope to meet more fellow goths there. Though I am still fighting with my father regarding educational issues with his blind sidekick, my stepmother. I feel my mother understands me much more, and I certainly hope I don't sound ignorant or pathetic in speaking of my father like this. I respect him essantially, but I despise his beliefs and viewpoints.

~Gothicblackthorne