I so wish I'd discovered this contentment sooner, but try so hard not to regret.
For years of my life were wasted ..
On depression, anxiety, low sense of ME!
It's weird, all of the bitterness, all the anger is gone o.O
Now it's just me, being me and honestly really enjoying being me!
I wasted so many years analyzing, preoccupied with the past.
Picking away, dissecting and licking old wounds. I literally all but drove myself mad ...
If I could give the younger me some advice and some comfort it would be to let it go. Let it all go, let it drip through your fingers. The comfort that I would offer is the constant reassurance that it WILL change; no situation is permanent. It will diversify, mutate .. change. So stop beating yourself up
I hear others here relate hurts and my heart saddens. Youth is so very very precious. I don't want their beautiful youthful years darkened by self doubt. Whether self manifested or bestowed upon them by others. Self doubt cripples.
Take it from an old Vampyre who knows lol ..
Seriously tho, fuck self doubt and fuck self criticism! The world criticizes and doubts you enough, why persecute yourself on top of that? My beloved Gran used to say 'You can't put an old head on young shoulders'. In truth it's an impossible feat to attempt, but isn't it also true that some are 'born old'?
With the weight of the world upon their young shoulders.
Gah .. I'm essay writing yet again o.O
Really, who am I to impart wisdoms on anyone!?
Ahhh I just care for the young Darklings, and wish ease in life for them.
Private hells regardless of their making, they are very real and so painful.
No ones hell has hierarchy over another, for whatever ails, ails ..
The remedy is to reiterate that pain in life is inevitable; suffering is optional.
So break the chains that bind you, break them now rather than later!