I tried to leave today
tried to make up reasons to go
left my mind an open canvas
for you to splatter words upon.
I tried to tell you I was worried,
that something felt amiss
tried, but I'm tired of letting you know.
I tried to ask you if you were happy,
want to know if I was still the one.
Waiting for your answers
and I'd already given up.
Months ago, I felt uneasy,
but maybe it's my fault.
Can I stick with anything, with anyone at all?
I tried to leave today,
but I didn't have the strength,
I feel there's something underneath,
that you have left to bare.
I tried to say I'm sorry for,
asking way too much,
but you will never understand
the workings of my beating heart.
